Hi. Wala akong mapagsabihan nito so I’ll just tell it to all of you here. I made this burner account para walang trace sa real account ko. Anyway, here it goes. Pasensya na agad kung may kahabaan.
But to make the long story short, I (24M) fucked my childhood bestfriend (21F).
Let’s call her A. Simula pagkabata, magkakilala na kami kasi magkaibigan ang pamilya namin. Kumbaga, kami-kami lang din magkakalaro noon. On and off ang communication namin habang tumatanda kami pero tingin ko naman hindi nawala ang closeness namin until now. Naging mag-mu pa nga kami briefly noon pero hindi rin nagtagal kasi lumipat na kami ng pamilya ko sa London.
Right now, I already have a stable job while she is currently in college and studying pre-med. Tapos ako, going back and forth from London to Ph for business reasons. Pero hindi na relevant ito.
It all started last. I think around June when she randomly asked me paano raw kung magkaroon siya ng semi-fubu and I was like wtf is a semi-fubu hahaha. But it all boiled down saying she had sexual frustrations na tingin niya raw di niya ma-satisfy on her own kaya siya lumapit sa akin to ask for advice, thinking I would have a good insight because I’m older and more knowledgable sa topic lol. She kept asking what should she do and nagbiro na what if I’ll set her up.
For some reason, I volunteered as her fubu. At that time, I don’t have feelings for her or anyone. Ayoko lang talaga she’d have sex for the first time with a person she barely knows kaya ang logic ko, ako na lang. I’m not one to judge naman and ang logic ko ay matagal na kaming magkakilala and we can trust each other.
Of course, she was surprised. Di niya inaasahang I would volunteer.
From that point on, when she realized I was serious, she told me she’d take baby steps. I accompanied her to an OB-GYN friend I know to ensure that her first time would go smoothly. There, she confessed she wanted to take pills because she’s not a fan of condoms daw. Biniro ko pa nga how would she know eh she has no experience yet hahaha.
Once she was prescribed the pills and her doctor gave her the go signal, she told me she was excited. We didn’t rush into it agad though. I told her to just let it happen.
During the days where we couldn’t fuck yet, I started to ease her into it. She said it’s okay naman. I remember how she was so shy at first haha. Pero she trusted me and allowed me to do whatever I want daw. It started first with just playing with her tits, sucking them etc., until she allowed me to finger her and eat her out.
And then it finally happened. She messaged me one night saying she was alone daw sa condo niya and sunduin ko raw siya. She was blunt and told me she’s horny and felt like that time, she wanted to let me fuck her already.
I’ve had my fair share of experiences din naman of ons or fubus back in London but I’m not exaggerating when I’ll say fucking her felt so damn good.
Pakiramdam ko may kumiliti sakin seeing her put her full trust in me to take care of her first time.
This has been going on for a few months whenever I was back in the Philippines and none of our friends and family know. They just think we’re just friends.
But the reason of posting this was not to tell you all my experience.
Last night, she was back in Manila and I was here too and we decided to spend time together. One thing led to another, I ended up fucking her again.
Kahit na we’ve seen each other bare before, she still gets shy about her body, saying she’s insecure because it’s on the bigger side. But I badly want to tell her her body is all I ever want. That all I ever wanted was to eat her, fuck her and everything.
She has this kink pa na gustong-gusto sabihan ko siyang bubuntisin ko siya. As we were fucking last night, I kept repeating how it felt so good inside her and how badly I want to fuck my cum inside her hanggang sa mabubtis siya. And as I was saying those, I pictured her carrying my children.
By now I think you know where this is going. It took me months to realize I love her. She’s still asleep beside me right now as I write this post. Napagod ko yata hahaha.
I’m not one to cower away from expressing my feelings and I think I’m gonna tell her later or tomorrow about my feelings.
I just want to vent this out here. I’ll see how ny confession goes. Wish me luck. I mean, I hear her saying type niya raw London boys because of Tom Hiddleston and Ben Barnes. British citizenship naman na ako. Would that count? Haha.