[21 M Here] Last October, I met one of my closest friend in a gig last october. I consider her as my right hand, she’s truly a homie. Lets call her Ari.
3 years ago I was in a relationship with someone for a few months. We didn’t continue as she was going to move to another country. It was short but a meaningful one. This left me a little depressed for a year. Throughout that relationship, we never fucked in the first place. She wasn’t ready at the time so I respected the her boundaries. This left me sexually frustrated for the next few years
Skip to early April, Ari and I found ourselves drinking together at my home. We did our usual conversations about our career and life but at one point we dwelve into something we never ever talked about, we talked about our sex life. I told her about how my last relationship it really affected my sex life and how it bothered me a lot. At one point in my depressive state I was actively looking for hookups to the point I was willing to pay for coitus. Ari heard my story and felt probably felt empathetic about it. She probably understood that I struggled temptation and sexual frustration triggered by the limitations if my last relationship. I get to hear her favorite kinks on how she always wanted to f*ck their own bestfriend. At that point, nagpapa rinig na siya.
​”First you take a drink, then the drink takes a drink, then the drink takes you.” Drinking is a dangerous as your thought process is hindered by the alcohol. At one point we were bat shit drunk, we were staring at each other so intimately. Then she went in for a kiss. As much as I tried to be rational with my thoughts, i really said my head “fuck it we ball.”
I never really had romantics feelings for her but as we kissed, something inside me lit up, i felt like I was seen. Its an heavenly experience to makeout with the closest friend I have as I have these fantasy of making out with my bestfriend HAHAHAHAHHA.
At one point she was rubbing herself to my hard crotch covered up by my shorts, I already knew where this is going. I never had plans to fuck her and i didn’t have a condom so I told her I cant risk it. Luckily shes on Pills. I admitted to her I was a virgin and she told me that she is as well. And we fucked…
A day after we talked about our friendship and where things would go. We decided not to end but stay as close friends but we can fuck each other whenever we want to. We fuck now atleast two times a week.
I now have a dilemma doe, what will happen to our friendship when we grow older, how long would this last. Are we supposed to end our friendship when we eventually have partners. The friendship is already ruined but i get to heal a part of me… what about her.